What it means to try to belong

I have spent more time in the Bronx wandering it and thinking about it in the past year than I have since I was a teenager. I am wondering, or have been wondering about why, exactly, I am obsessed with the place, given its history as a site of ill-repute and disrepair, disinvestment; as a symbol of poverty, urban blight and what it means to hide immigrants and poor people in plain sight within an empire.